That line about sitting in your truck for 20 minutes really got me. I've had that exact moment, just staring at nothing, hands still shaking, wondering what the hell I was doing out there. Getting thrown across a basement is no small thing, man. It sounds like your body was trying to tell you something your brain had been ignoring for a while. The fear of turning down money is real, especially when you're the one who has to make the bills. But you can't spend money if you're not around to spend it. Sounds like that week taught you a lesson no classroom ever could.